Happy B-day Noah!!!

Wow...it't been 2 years already. It seems like it was just yesterday that we lost him. About a year or so ago, I was filing papers at work, listening to my ipod and minding my own business. A song started playing and I didn't think much of it other than the fact that I hadn't heard it in such a long time. The song is a constant reminder to me that even though Noah isn't here with us, I know we WILL see him agian. So...today on Noah's birthday, I am sharing it with all of you. Just remember, that even though Noah isn't here with us, he is in our hearts and minds, and we will see him again...

Hello, Good-Bye
Where's the Navigator of your destiny?
Where is the Dealer of this hand?
Who can explain life and its brevity'

Cause there is nothing here that I can understand

You and I have barely met

And I just don't want to let go of you yet

Chorus:
Noah, hello, goodbye

I will see you on the other side

Noah, sweet child of mine

I will see you on the other side

And so I hold your tiny hand in mine

For the hardest thing I've ever had to face

Heaven calls for you before it calls for me

When you get there, save me a place

A place where I can share your smile

And I can hold you for more than just a while

Chorus

Seeing Things From Both Sides of the Fence

Amanda had her baby September 1st. How ironic to have your first child on Labor Day??? Anyways, Amanda had her baby and I couldn't be happier for her. Some family is upset because grandma Youngmark says this is her first great-grandchild, when they feel she really isn't...Noah is. Well...I see it both ways. Yes, Noah would be the 1st great-grandchild, but yes, Linnea is as well. I'll be honest, it really doesn't bother me that she says Linnea is the first great-grandchild, because in grandma's eyes, she is. I know she isn't discounting Noah. Everyone hurt when we lost him. I still hurt today, and it's been almost 2 years. If I were to get upset about grandma saying Linnea is her first great-grandchild, does that mean I should get upset at my parents when they say they have 3 grandkids? No...I shouldn't get upset. Sometimes people just don't want to explain that they lost a grandchild/great-grandchild, because it's just plain hard. There are times when I tell people I don't have kids. It doesn't mean that I'm not considering Noah my child...I just don't want to go into details. Who knows...grandma may consider Noah a great-grandchild, but for her to say she has 2 great grandkids would mean she would have to go through the pain and explain that her "1st" didn't make it and was still born. Who wants to explain that? I can't let the little things like this bother me...I'm trying to learn to let little things go. To me, this is just a little thing. Everyone has their own way of dealing with pain and loss, and I think this is grandma's way of doing that.

Evan and Amanda have Linnea. I couldn't be happeir for them. I'm glad they have her. I wouldn't with the loss of a child on anyone. It is by far the hardest thing I have had to deal with in my life. Never ever would I wish that on anyone.

So, Sunday is Linnea's baptism, and I'm determined to make the best of it. After all...she is mine and Josh's God daughter...and she's a cutie...just like her "auntie" Nomie.:)

Vacation Pictures

Yeah I know...vacation was back in July...but...now that I have the pictures on my computer, I can post some of them...so...here you go! :)

Our awesome tent

USS Irving

The lift bridge

Goosberry Falls (I love waterfalls!!!) We have ton of pictures of this

At Glensheen...very interesting place to tour. If you are in the area...spend the money and go on the tour...it is a very beautiful house...majority of the stuff is original. It was a little creepy at first walking through a house where you know a murder took place...expecially walking up the main stairs where the nurse was first found. But you get over it...but it is a super interesting tour and beautiful house/mansion.

Back of Glensheen

Gardners house

Carriage house

Politics...

I'm not into politics.
I don't know who to vote for.
People say McCain.
People say Obama.
Who do I vote for?
I'll vote for who I think will do the better job.
Maybe I should start doing some research.
Any suggestions on websites look at?
I'm open to any and all...

Our Camping Visitor

Well, we're finally home again. Josh and I left for Duluth on the 7th, and got home last night around 9:30 or so. We are super tired, but were incredibly glad to be able to sleep in our own bed again. I'll post pictures when Josh gets them off the camera, bur for now, this is what you get...

Tuesday morning I was washing up stuff from breakfast, and Josh had run to the bathroom. I made some PB & J for lunch, and the sandwiches and PB were still out. I had a little visitor...I couldn't get it on the normal camera cuz I didn't want to scare him away...so the camera on my phone had to work for...a little red squirl came over, and was up on the table...in the pictures you can pretty much see how close I was to him...I think I ended up about a foot a way from it. The little stinker wasn't afraid of anything...here's the pictures, and a few videos...enjoy...

Our Salt Water Aquarium

A few months back Josh decided he wanted to start a salt water aquarium. After much research, and cleaning of the tank, we finally have it under way. We had to start with just the sand for a bit, then add the rock, and now we are currently on the "clean-up crew" stage...aka...adding the snails. So...we have a few living creatures in the tank now, and when we get back from vacation we will probably get a few clown fish, and see how it goes. Some day...we may end up with a bigger tank...:) I wouldn't mind...we just need to get a normal house first. But for now...this will do...here are a few pictures...

Stage One: Sand

Stage 2: Add Rock

Stage 3: Add more rock and some snails...they are in there, you just can't see them to well...they blend pretty well with the rock and sand.

I'll post more pictures when we get the fish...:)

Library Visits!!

Ok...so you all know I love to read. I'm guessing it must run in the family...I'm thinking I got it from mom, who in turn got it from grandma. But, anywho...my wonderful husband talked me into getting a library card...probably cuz he was sick of me telling him I needed books. Yes, I have a tote full from Amy, which needs to be returned...but right now that's besides the point. I think I'm on book 16 or 17 so far this year, and still have about 3 sitting here waiting to be read before they are returned. But about this library thing...they are by far the best thing around. We are there probably once every few weeks getting stocked up on books. Yes, Josh even got a card. He's been reading up on salt water aquariums. We are now down to 3 fish, and are waiting for them to die, so we can start a salt water aquarium. So anyways...libraries are by far my favorite thing right now. There is an endless variety of books, of which I am picky on what I read, but still...even in my short little variety, I have many to choose from. Pretty soon, I'm going to have to move on to new people cuz I will sadly have read all books by Karen Kingsbury, Nicholas Sparks, Beverly Lewis, and Lori Wick. It saddens me just thinking about it.