Results

So, Wednesday was the big day...I had my ultrasound. Things couldn't be better. Everything came back normal. No leftover tissue in my uterus, and my endometrial wall has thinned. I don't have to have a DNC or biopsy at all. My HCG levels dropped from 98 to 28, which is a HUGE answer to prayer.
When my HCG levels get to 25, I will be starting birth control for 3 months. Within those 3 months, we will see a specialist, and see what they have to say and go from there as to having kids. My doctor is pretty confidant that we will have them. I just need to STAY pregnant. So, we'll see what the specialist says and go from there.
Thank you to those who have been praying. Please continue to pray for Josh and I, and also pray for the doctors as they help us.
Until next time...:)

No More Secrets

It's been a while since I've been on here for an update. So...on the baby front. Clomid is done. It's been done since January. Yep...that's right. No more clomid. Why? Well, we'll put it this way. The clomid worked, BUT we lost the baby. I was about 6 weeks along, and we lost it. When I started clomid this round, I was very hesitant. Two years ago I was on clomid, got pregnant right away and lost that baby as well. So...we've been married almost 4 years, and have lost 3 babies. This isn't the easiest thing to deal with, but Josh and I have talked about it, and we feel that going through this, has in fact brought us closer.

Where are we going from here? Well...I've been going in every few weeks for blood tests, to make sure my HCG level is dropping. Before we left for Florida, it was down to 91, when we got back, it was up to 98. So, on Wednesday I will be going in for an ultrasound. They are going to check for any leftover tissue in my uterus. If there is, they will do a DNC, and clean it out. If not, they will do and endometrial biopsy. I'm praying a DNC will be what is needed, because the whole biopsy word freaks me out to no end.

Two years ago when we went through this, it took 2 months for my numbers to drop to zero. This time isn't much different, other than the doctor, and her being proactive in making sure things are fine, and there isn't anything more going on. Have I mentioned, I LOVE my doctor.

Where do we go from here? When my numbers (HCG level) go back to normal, I will start a 3 month stretch of birth control. In that 3 month time span, we will see a specialist, and see what they have to say. According to Dr. Turner (aka...my doctor) these guys are the "fast" way to get pregnant, she is the "slow" way. My doctor is confidant that we will get pregnant, and carry a baby to full term. Josh and I are too, we're just impatient.

With all that said, I know some of you are thinking "Why now? Why now are you telling us/family that Noah wasn't the only baby you've lost?" Well, that's an easy one to answer. Telling family & friends we lost Noah was not the easiest thing. Telling them early on that we were pregnant again, then telling them we lost it would have been just as hard. We didn't want to put our family through that again. But, now with me having to go in for either a DNC or biopsy, we thought we needed to start talking. With having to do more than just blood tests this time, we felt family should know now. We can't hide a DNC or biopsy from family.

So, there you have it...no more secrets. Noah was baby number one, and 2 others have followed. Please pray with us that everything will turn out fine on Wednesday. Pray with us that doctors have wisdom in helping us, and that we have patience. Pray that God shows us what we should do...do we keep trying to get pregnant, or should we start looking at adoption.