So...yesterday was Valentines Day...a day I have NEVER liked. Yes I'm married, and yes, I still hate it. Why take one day out of the year to show someone how much you love them, when it is something you should be doing all year. In the last year or so, I've learned to hate it more, because the day after--February 15th--was suppose to be Noah's due date. As I've said before, we lost him when I was 6 months pregnant.

Today was a hard day. In ways I wish I could have just stayed home, but in others it was ok to work. I was lucky enough to keep busy all day and not think of it much. Josh and I are going out tonight with friends from his work. This is another good thing to keep our mind off things and socialize insead.

I wonder though...what would our life be like with Noah in it? What would it be like if he were here with us phyiscally??? There are many things in life that you can't change, and this is one of those things. As much as we would love to have Noah with us, we know he is in a better place. He is looking down on us today...as he is every day...and telling us it's going to be OK.